It might be time to say goodbye.
I've been toying with this possibility for a while. Here's what started it all. I read an article that explained that to determine if a relationship is toxic, consider how you feel after a meeting or encounter. If the relationship is healthy, one typically feels great after an encounter, energized, hopeful, happy. If the relationship is toxic, one feels drained after an encounter. More and more lately, when I spend time with you, I don't feel great afterwards. You leave me feeling a bit... empty.
Oh, don't get me wrong - you are enticing. You offer the siren call of entertainment, belonging, friendship. But the truth is, you don't really deliver. What happens instead is that you suck me in to your dramas - bits of information that I probably don't really need to know. When I'm with you, you choose what grabs my attention. I think it might be time for me to choose what grabs my attention. Time for me to get my time back.
There are reasons not to leave you, to be sure. You are how I promote professional writing. You are how I keep in touch with friends from high school and college and former jobs who aren't on texting status. Are these reasons enough to stay together?
I'm still thinking. This isn't a breakup for sure. Yet. But for now, I do think some time apart to reflect wouldn't be a bad thing. Either way, I'm quite certain you'll be able to go on without me.
For now, all the best. And by the way, it's not me, it's you.