You are not going to believe what's going to happen in the next ten years. Right now, you are feeling lost, and a bit confused. You are with a man who doesn't feel right. You want children, but not with him. You feel guilty about this. You like being in a relationship. You like the things he provides for you. Companionship. Stability. Relationship status (in a relationship).
You feel a bit lost in your career. You love the children you teach, but you wonder what's next. You miss travel. You miss pushing your limits. You've discovered the Reading and Writing Project and you want to be just like those staff developers when you grow up.
You think, you're reaching an age where you should be more stable, more sure. You think you shouldn't be going out as much as you are. But you like going out. You like acting like you're still twenty.
You are running. A lot. You are probably a bit on the thin side. Though you don't have a serious issue, you probably worry about what you eat just a bit too much. If you don't run a certain number of miles per week, you feel like a failure.
To sum up, you are unmoored. But I'm here to tell you that this unmooring is something to be celebrated. For without letting go of those safe but slightly stale shores what happens next wouldn't have happened.
For example, in the next ten years, you will...
- Meet and marry the love of your life
- Move to Sydney, Australia with him
- Move back to Brooklyn
- Work for The Reading and Writing Project
- Write a book
- Move to the Bronx
- Have a perfect baby boy
- Move to Manhattan
- Expand your friends' circle with incredible fellow parents and caretakers
- Work for Heinemann
- Have another perfect baby boy
- Feel more fulfilled, grateful, and joyful (and tired) than you ever have in your life.
So, don't worry. Go through everything you need to go through. Make all of the choices. Because you end up just fine.
Yourself, in 10 years